Woke up tired this morning. All that spanking and flogging is hard work. hehe

Heard a little boy say,”Da deee. I see the rivahhhh.

Took a long walk to Kensington Park and Hyde Park. The English Garden.

Am back now trying to decide for my last day in London, tomorrow..

Ate an Indian lunch, the food was pretty good but the service is terrible.

Tonight, haven’t seen anyone new for our room…may be a quiet night in old London town.

This morning started off with a panic. The water was off in the hostel. The desk told me that there was one shower with cold water only. I’m taking it! There was a guy in there and 2 german kids waiting before me..their choir is due to be at rehearsal in 45 min for a concert tomorrow with the London Philharmonic. The guy in the shower was taking forever…after lots of jokes about “what’s he doing in there?” I knocked on the door, he just kept knocking back. He finally came out with a scowl on his face. There are always asses everywhere. The german guys were fast and I took the quickest shower in history. My car came at 10:00, I was the first to arrive at the purple door.

The Purple door is a beginning workshop for those desiring to learn more about BDSM. Bondage, Discipline, Sado, Masocistic. There are several reasons for these practices, 1) In receiving pain, the body produces endorphins, these cause a euphoric high. 2) trauma in childhood, being hit and being powerless, through the acts of BDSM, heals the trauma 3) Others there is some undefined quality that draws them to BDSM.

It’s leader/educator is London Faerie, his partner is Martie, from Prague, the Chech Republic. They are a lovely couple and have found this way to express their own loving sexuality, Estactic BDSM. My goal is to interview Faerie. He suggested that I attend the workshop so that I may understand it all better.

There are 10 participants, male and female, including me. I’m a little wary but determined to be a good sport and new knowledge is always precious. My worries, that my vanilla sexuality, will stand out is quickly dispelled. All the people are sweet, kind and loving. They are all here because they’ve tried BDSM and desire to know more.

It’s good that people get instruction before going in depth in these techniques.

We started the morning, going to different people in the room..asking for something, then the same exercise saying what we don’t want. The key to BDSM is asking for what you want, saying no, and setting boundaries up front.

We got instructions on spanking, using our hands, what part of the body part to hit, what to avoid. Then we practiced. I got 2, yes, 2 guys! Tom and Christolph. We got on either side of Tom, with partially cupped hands, started on the shoulders, upper back, buttocks, thighs, and calves. Tom wanted me to hit harder. Then we did the same to Christolph. All the while, the “receiver” of the spankings, is giving you feedback. Then came my turn. They started on me, reminded me of the respiratory therapy chest clapping, OK..but ??.

Martie is a monitor that goes around and helps. She told the guys that I wasn’t really “into it”. She showed then a technique of light punching and kneading of the skin…now that’s more like it…like a back massage. At the end of it all, we had a group hug, me and the two guys…NOW, that is pleasurable! Tom, he’s young, early 20s, identifies as Bi, told me that he grew up in a Catholic sex negative household and always knew that he was different. He is sexually and emotionally drawn to women, but has a thing for “pretty boys”, although has only engaged with foreplay with boys.

After a break, We learned about the “implements of torture” ( my words). We learned to spank with a paddle, to flog, and to cane. We practiced with partners for 15 min each. I have Christolph. I felt a little sorry for him..he’s into being spanked.. and he deserves a someone that is more into it. So I’m trying to do my best.

I learned that I like flogging more than I like being flogged. After 5 min of receiving flogging…it didn’t do anything for me. But flogging him is a bit fun.. you kinda get in a rhythm.. and to strategicially hit a certain spot. Then ever so often, an element of surprise, I’d give him a wallop!

But on the implement table, I found these fur gloves… I used them to rub his back…I liked that, but he wanted to go back to the whip. Some of the participants, took off all their clothes..I took off my boots and jacket. I kinda admired their guts..I’m just too uptight.

In the next part, we are to pick a person and ask for what we want specifically. I am able to bow out of this…needing to set up my equipment for Faerie’s interview that I am to conduct after the workshop. Christolph got a girl, what was really into it. I’m glad.

For me, it’s preferable to be a casual observer. I spent the rest of the time..working on my questions for the interview and did some watching. I saw some red bottoms! The men were into bring spanked..guess it’s letting loose of that macho male..always needing to be in control thing. The men like the cane, seems it’s a British headmaster thing.

One of the female participants…Think her name is Kate? Sorry, should have written it down. Enjoyed talking to her and we had things in common. She’s enjoying this workshop, because she enjoys being spanked… her partners want to rush through it to get to the sex part…yeah, guys.. this was a safe environment…that she could be spanked with no expectations. Most people there did not want to talk or let me take their pic, due to confidentially. I could tell at the end, they all really did get something out of it, and on kinda a high…maybe it’ll be the new drug of the Millennium?

The interview with Faerie is great. He explained BDSM so well and with a fresh perspective. He talked in the workshop, that in the past, he was married, corporate job, and dying inside. This is him finding his bliss and expressing his real self. You can feel the bliss and passion. That aspect is always exciting to me.

For better or worse, the 50 Shades of Grey movie is coming out in Feb 2015. Although the BDSM community does not accept it, I fully agree with their reasons…I have my own reasons of why I don’t like it. Saying all that, with the US and our media, It will draw attention to BDSM. So maybe sexual educators like Faerie, can use that open door….to open the Purple Door to them.

As I assess the day, I learned a great deal, so that I may also, through the radio medium, educate people that have an interest of BDSM. That is the purpose of Night Moves..if anyone wants to engage in sexual behavior, they can learn the facts based on research, learn the benefits and risks…enabling them to make in informed decision.

So in my life, if ever the need arises for me to spank, flog or cane someone..I know how to do it safely.

Took a taxi back, ran into to Bruno, on the way to our room. I told him that I finished my work tonight. I told him about the BDSM workshop..and how I found… I like to throw a flog better that being flogged. We laughed and laughed. He said my new knick name is Kinky Ann. Then Katie came in, we also laughed. They are both leaving in the morning. They are both so fun!! Bruno, from Brazil, just graduated with an architecture degree and his uncle gave his a ticket to Europe. Nice! He’s heading to Budapest. Katie, from Maryland, is teaching here for a year, at Morbrough Boarding School, a hoity, toirty school for the rich and famous.

Also Mani, from Spain, he’s a TV newsman. He’s also been fun. He went to the BBC, and got an insiders tour, but didn’t get to see the live radio area. This is a fun group of bunkmates..will miss them.

Today, am going to the British Museum. Taxi’s are killing me, so expensive, but I love them. There is a bus, that goes direly to the British Museum. I’m taking it. It was about a 20 min ride. I started talking to this Saudi young man and we had lots of laughs. I went to the British Museum many years ago. Was fascinated with all the Egyptian exhibits. At that time, I walked through a huge room of books, but the time I discovered it, it was the end of the day, and I had little time to look. Randy however found that room, had time, and bragged about for years. So today I want to see the book room..of famous first editions, text through the middle ages, M many gorgeously illustrated books, Mystic text, and a book made of skin. Today, I found the room is closed and has been for many years. Oh, disappointed. It’s one of those examples of taking the opportunity when you can because it may never come again. The Rosetta Stone, that made it possible to translate the hieroglyphs. Out side of Egyptian tomb I

wandered around the museum for hours. Spent a lot of time at the Egyptian mummy stuff. The exhibit seems newer than I remember. I like the early explorers and their botanical and animal specimens. There is more of that in the Natural History Museum but probably won’t make it with the limited time I have left. I hope to get to the Victoria and Albert Museum. Stopped for coffee and met a lovely couple from the Netherlands, out side of Amsterdam, a favorite city. He actually invited me to stay at their place if I came to Amsterdam. Took the bus back in the afternoon. I was tired so took a little nap, now ready to go with a second wind. It was a little early for dinner, so I went to the lounge, trying to download some pics for this blog. Met Diego, from a couple of nights ago. We walked to a chinese restaurant and had a bite of dinner and told stories. It was so much fun to have someone to eat with. I still can’t get used to dinning alone, don’t enjoy it solo at all. Back to my room, getting ready for tomorrow. It’s my last work, Sat, before I leave on Tues. I’m attending a BDSM workshop and interviewing the speaker, Faery London. Should be an interesting day! Stay tuned!

This morning, the plan is, go to Westminster Abby. It’s were kings and many famous people are buried. It’s where the monarchs are crowned and royals are buried. Never made it there during my other trips to London.

The gothic arches are so impressive. Upon paying the 18 lbs, you are given a headset to listen to the walking tours. I got tired of listening to the blah, blah, blah. I got a chuckle out of the epitaph’s on the graves. There are no pictures to show you of the inside, photo’s not allowed.

The deceased women are referred to as “virtuous both in mynde (mind) and body”..wonder what that means? There is no inscription that says “she was a saucy lady”. It mentions being loyal to their husbands..”even in times of misery”. It mentions what children they had. Both men and women that died of natural causes lived till their 50s.

Some of the ones that I liked..

An officer “having fatally shot by a cannon ball, slain at the moment of victory and so having gloriously ended his days at age 50.”

Paid homage to the graves of Newton and Darwin and Lister.

WWI, tomb of the “ The Unknown Soldier lies among the most illustrious of the land, Armistice Day Nov 1920. Gave the most that man can give, life itself, for God, King, and Country for the sacred cause of justice and freedom in the world.”

“David Livingston: Missionary and Traveler: For 30 yrs, his life was spent in an effort to evangelize the native races, to explore the undiscovered secrets, and to abolish the desolating slave trade of central Africa. Where with his last words, he wrote…” All I can add in my solitude is… may rich blessings come down on everyone who helped heal this open sore of the world”

There are many Anns in English history ..just to name a couple..Ann Nevill 1456-1485, Queen of England, wife of bad guy, Richard III…. Ann of Cleves, wife of Henry XIII.1515-1537.

The area of writers and poets: Chaucer 1400, Lord Byron the poet of romance, died 1824 age 36. DH Lawrence, that naughty boy, his inscription is “Homo Sum, The Adventurer” ( have to look that one up). And Henry James and Longfellow.

Then finally a funny one:

“Clement Coltrell.esq. Eldest son, succeeded at his office for which he was very fit, having a tall handsome person, a graceful behavior, and great natural parts”. What are those great natural parts?

Mass was going on during the tour, you could stand on the side and participate. I kept walking. The cathedral was so beautiful and I took time to admire all the statures and artisan work.

My memories of the place was seeing it on TV, the marriage to Diana and then sadly, her funeral. I’ve always felt a special connection to Diana, because we were pregnant together twice and both had boys. She coined the phrase, “heir and a spare”. I had to use mine. I was in Tokyo when I heard the news of her death. I listened to the coverage on InterFM, English speaking radio.

After touring the cathedral and the grounds. I went to their coffee shop.

Had a lunch…carrot and fennel soup.   Tea and scones…Food of the gods. I finally had my afternoon tea!!

My whole family loved afternoon tea when we came to London. My kids loved the “tea party” atmosphere, but with their best manners.

Walked around, headed to Parliament. The Tenney’s went to Parliment, a couple of weeks ago, they walked in to the chambers and listened. Today, it was shutdown for security, Orange alert.  People in line, said it was due to hostage threats in the Middle East. Walked around more, until I had no idea where I was, thought I was walking back to my place…so I finally got a taxi, and damn, I was walking the wrong way. Got back later, was tired, took a shower and a snooze. Guess I’m staying in tonight. The kids I was hanging out with left.

Heard about the Camden market before when I came to London, but never visited. It was recommended last week. It is fascinating. I haven’t done any shopping on this trip mainly didn’t want to carry around. So today is the day. Generally, I’m not a big shopper, have to be in the mood and after about 1 ½ hrs, I’m done. Want to get some little gifts for my kids and the ones at the radio station.

It was open air markets, little shops lining the street. All kinds of things, from souvenirs, to leather ware, punk and goth, artisan goods, hand crafted jewelry. I walked around in wonder of all the things. The food stalls were especially amazing. Pick up some “take away” as they say here and sit in motorcycle seats on the banks of the river.

I couldn’t pass up the vegetarian dim sum. These pictures really do not do it justice, for the fascinating place that it was.

I treated myself to a 10 min. chair massage. Been thinking about getting a hip London haircut and have been eyeing the places. Most are expensive. I walked by this one place had wash, haircut and blowdry for 20 lbs. Wow. I liked the haircut in the pic in the front as well as the hairdressers, who is from Italy. It was so much fun, the hairdresser was so cool and funny..it is really a treat. Love my haircut..but it’s short. Hope I Don’t look too butch..it’s difficult before to attract a man.

The Russian girl, is nursing a broken heart tonight. We’re going to the pub. See how my new haircut works? Stay tuned.

It’s 10 pm, got back from the pub a little while ago.,with Maria..instead of calling her the Russian girl.

Sitting next to me is a girl that is half Italian and half American. She’s traveling Europe before she goes home and pursues another degree. Next to her was an Australian. We all laughed and had fun, over a drink, Wine for me. Maria was struggling to have fun, she did laugh a few times. I told of her of how as a child we were so fearful of the Soviet Union taking over the US. I remember the rumor that if that happens we are allowed one egg a week. The Churches made everyone so fearful that if the soviets ruled us there is not more religion. I’ll never forget those feared atomic bomb attack from the russians of in kindergarten doing those drills where we had to get under our desks. As if that would save us. All the while the fear was used to get big defense budgets. The military- industrial complex. My young friend of 22, couldn’t relate. She said Moscow is beautiful and wonderful.

We ran into the Aussie guys in our room at the Pub..

The Nigerian guy, Emanuel, in our room is really sweet and funny. Before we left for the Pub, I told him that we were going out to look for men. When we returned, I had to confess that we had no luck, and had a big laugh. I said it’s difficult when you have a young heart in an old body. Hehe..

Now back at our place, didn’t feel like staying in the room, so I’m sitting in the newly discovered lounge. Checking it out…

Trying to download pics for my blog, but the internet is sooooo slow. This guy came and set next to me…actually, he probably just wanted to charge his computer..but I can fantasize? His name is Diego, from the Canary Islands. The first person that I have met from there. The Canary Islands, are part of and south of Spain, but closer to North Africa. He is moving to London, looking for a job and a place. We started talking about what we did and our travels. I gave him my card, he went to the Night Moves web site and started looking at the shows. I started explaining the content of each.

He said, Since he’s been in London, this conversation with me is the most interesting of his whole visit. Yeah, sex’ll do it everytime..although some people it makes clam up and move away. We chatted, only got a couple of pics loaded..and said Goodnight.

It was a really fun day.

Woke up this morning not as early as planned. I didn’t pack last night. Today I am moving. The place I am staying, London School of Economics Residence (LSE), the school is starting Monday..and us guests have to leave before the weekend. Hotels and budget accommodations are getting scarce for the weekend. I tried to change my reservation to stay a couple of more days at the LSE, because the area was fantastic and there were still a few more things I wanted to check out. However, I was gonna cost me..but more important, I couldn’t just make a change, to arrive for a couple of days later. I had to cancel my reservation and make a whole new one. Since the new place is sold out for the weekend., didn’t want to take a chance.

First thing, I wanted to have my free breakfast, that I’ve grown to enjoy. They have this organic plain yogurt and lots of really good fruit. I looked around and picked my man to eat breakfast with. I asked a man close to my age and asked if I could join him? He’s Trevor, from Vancouver, CA. A favorite city. He is a historian and Mason. He had an interesting conversation…the Mason’s did not decend from the Knight’s Templar, as I always thought. I asked why the Catholic church hated them so much and said they were all going to hell. He said its a struggle for power and control.

Ooops, I noticed that it was almost 10am, time to check out. I hadn’t even showered or packed yet. Did I have to rush. After check out, I stayed till 2, because this internet service is so fast. I had some work to do and emails to send and return, as well as check in in the new place was 3pm.

Took a taxi to the new place, Equity Point. It’s in the Westminster area. It’s quieter than the bustling west end. A bit more residential..but nice architecture. Checked in. My room is on the ground floor, YES!!

I’m in a 8 bed room, mixed. This time it’s, as usual in my life, me and the boys. I am the only girl.

There is a guy from New Zealand, but leaving tomorrow. A boy from Korea, One from Nigeria and 2 from Austrialia, that are out and haven’t met yet and one empty bed about me.

There are pros and cons to having a private room or sharing…but for me..I’m glad to be back with people. I don’t like those alone moments. Maybe that says something about me?? Not sure.

Took a walk around the area. Stopped in a little Indian restaurant, for a late lunch or early dinner, it’s 3:30. It was good and only 10lbs, incl tip. They only tip 10% here, because the restaurants are forced to pay the workers a living wage. I feel a little like I’m shorting them. I started talking to this guy in the restaurant,,,what I’m doing here..about my interviews..he’s a newly wed. I gave him my card and .told him to listen to one of my shows about how to keep it interesting over the long term. lol

Walked around some more. Settled into my rooming that evening. The boys are all sprucing up to hit the pubs. I’m gonna stay in do some work and read. Sounds boring? I was out most all day. Late in the evening, I Russian girl checked in. She went out and in the morning, there were 2 above me..a new guy. Life in a hostel.

Move over, let Ann take over….that’s just a joke y’all. The Dalick, Dr. Who. This is to remember the journalists killed. At night a blue light shines. This is art, countries and states grouped together, outside the BBC Today I went to the BBC. It was exciting!!! I am a big fan. When I hear our US/World news..I then turn to the BBC….for unbiased news. The newsroom..not clear, had to take through glass. I took the tour. Typically, I don’t like tours much because they can be tedious. This was recommended by one of my professors. We are very fortunate, since there were only 3 on our tour.  The next tour group had about 25. I met a lovely couple, he a physics professor and she has gone back to school for art history. My only disappointment is that I did not get to go to the area of live radio. Just the radio drama. Since pictures tell the story better, here goes Doing the news: Sleeping at the BBC during WWII Original building below: Art Deco, my favorite Original Logo

I’ve invited many that I’ve met in Ireland and UK to San Antonio.

Here’s a few pictures

Woke up late, ate breakfast. Set next to a guy from Pakistan and my breakfast partner of yesterday, Nacho (my old cat’s name) from Spain and his pretty girlfriend from Poland.

Went out for a walk in my workout clothes, that Melissa, my trainer in Texas forced me to bring. Thinking seeing them in my suitcase, would encourage me to do my cardio? Was surprised to find it was really cool and overcast. Yea! London weather!!! Walked toward Covent garden, I think? Never found it. Haven’t been to Covent garden, it’s a shopping area not a garden that I saw, in 20 yrs. Wonder if it’s changed?

Got a little chilly, so went back to LSE. Started doing some work, preparing for the interview with Blair. We are old dive buddies, met in Belize last summer. He and a friend, Dan, had just graduated from medical school and were officially doctors. This was their “Ya Hoo!!” trip before they had to settle down and become “responsible”. Blair was being faithful to his girlfriend at home and Dan was chasing the pretty girls. We all had few drinks at the local hang out, Tipsy Tuna, and a couple of dinners. At that time, I was playing music on the air as DJ Red Rock. I was in Belize partially covering “Lobsterfest” for my reggae radio show I was planning. I interviewed and recorded local Belizeian and Reggae bands. When hanging out with Blair and Dan, I told them about the need in young people and baby boomers need information on sexual health and I was trying to get a talk radio on that topic. It was a lot of work just to get it approvedn through the station hierarcy. It’d never been done at our radio station, KSYM, or in my city of San Antonio…probably never in Texas. However, Night Moves came to fruition. That is my purpose today..to interview Blair.

This afternoon Blair is coming by and were going to do an interview about his role of a physician in Britons National Health Service. Do doctors screen for sexual dysfunction? When the patient has the diagnosis that cause erectile dysfunction. I also plan to ask questions of Sexuality in the Millennial Generation. Another attempt to peek under the sheets in London.

Blair appeared at my door of LSE, late but very welcome. After a quick catch up on the past year, we preceded with the interview. I asked about his role in the national health service (NHS) ( its the UK government run universal coverage heath care..like of like Medicare for All or single payer option that we had the opportunity to get in pass country), how much training do doctors get in regard to sexual dysfunction or sexual screening.

We moved to a discussion of sexuality in the Millennial generation in the UK ( young people that came of age during the change of the century, 2000. They don’t use that name here for that generation. They do use baby boomer generation. Students get comprehensive sexual education at school beginning at about age 12, and through 13, 14. His parents did not need to do much sex education with him because the school education is thorough.

We discussed safe sex, he said it’s not consistent and seems to be related to class or educational status of the couple. More education, the safer the practices. They are aware of HPV, test women for the concern of cervical cancer. They do not recommend barrier method protection for oral sex. They do vaccinate the pre adolescence girls for HPV, but not the boys. In the US we vaccinate the girls and boys…assuming their parents take them. In the UK, adult women can he tested for HPV when they get their pap smear. If negative, they can get the HPV vaccine. ( called Gardisil in the US) Proud to say that I had my first dose..takes 3. Legislators in Texas try to block legislation, especially our Governor Perry…he and those “god and guns” people object to vaccinating our youth for HPV…because it will make them go out and have sex. Absurd!!

We discussed at the beginning of a sexual encounter, does the couple talk before they take off their clothes, on safe sex, communicating what you like and what the woman needs to get her where she needs to go?

He thinks safe sex is up front and the other happens slowly over time… We completed our interview by talking about marriage and long term relationships. What are the UK divorce rates? What couples should do to keep their sex life active and exciting for the long term? I joked with Blair…he needs to pay attention to this part since Blair has a long term girlfriend, whom is a doctor as well. Even more important for them because doctors work long hours, universally.

Me and the boys..always

I dug up a few dive pictures I took of us last summer in Belize.

We finished up, got an update on our buddy Dan, he how has a serious girlfriend. Guess those chasing days or over for now. I updated him on the progress of Night Moves.

It was great to see Blair, catch up, and sure appreciated him participating in my radio show. I walked him to the train station and talked how we want to go back to Belize. Great Memories!

I am to interview my Chupracabra of this trip…those in south Texas know about that rare mythical creature that everyone wants to find. He is late and I’m worried that he will not show. However, Seani Love arrived in a few minutes. We had a chat before the interview. I love men, but there’re not many men that I meet that you can tell really love women…actually love women’s less that perfect bodies, their convoluted ways of thinking… and all the flaws us females are endowed with.

Some men say they love women, but their actions leave the impression that they are more interested in getting off, showing their dominance, and marking their territory. Am I wrong guys? Seani’s reputation preceded him…as I was told by the UK sex positive community…”all the women love Seani”. However, I planned to make up my own mind.

In our chat before the interview..my first notice is his beautiful voice. It’s not quite British, as he is British but grew up in Australia. Having previously seen his web site. I knew he looked like a real guy. Not a dandy or metrosexual bone in his body…man through and through. It came though loud and clear that he does love and enjoy women. That alone impressed me. He definitely has the charisma. If he could bottle it, he’d be a millionaire.

His work is teaching, doing workshops, and individual sessions on Shadow Tantra, BDSM, and considers himself a “Sexual Professional”. I was calling him a MSW,( that’s not a Medical Social Worker) although are are many similarities. Shadow Tantra is new to me. It is the practice of dealing with issues that repress a person’s sexuality such as past trauma. In a private session, he has a discussion, of what the woman thinks her issues are, then he also assesses and uses his intuition to excavate that top layer and dig underneath and into the psyche. He also does sessions that women can release their anger against men and the patriarchal society. guess we all have those demons…after all men have been lording it over us for centuries.

I had lots of questions about the “sexual professional”, that services women, part. Such as the pre negotiation, boundaries, and safe sex. It’s paramount, is the reply. Of note, no CDC guidelines practiced here for oral.

I had in interest in…does the exchange of money affect the power dynamic of the encounter…if the woman pays..does she take charge? Or if she’s paying does she expect him to do all the work. The answer is surprising to me…that a woman paying makes the transaction very clean..it eliminates the expectations of calling the next day, an on going relationship. It’s honest and up front. My next area to explore was… since women desire the emotional connection.. how is that achieved? He says that he meets with his clients ahead of the session to establish that emotional connection. When asked about the arousal?….women are aroused buy a man desiring them, and secondly, we want to know what a man likes about us….like.. is it my eyes, or my sense of humor? He responded that at that moment he wants that woman! and he does tell them what he finds attractive. To know more or the research behind it, listen to Night Moves show on “Sex Cues and Arousal” at www.nightmoveslive.com

Now I dive into the personal. Is he like the gynecologists, that have notoriously low sex drives from looking at lady parts all day? So if this is your work…does that affect your personal life?..Such as sex? Nahhhh, I gave at the office? His response is that he has two long-term female partners and considers himself polyamorous but he doesn’t live with either of them. He loves women and has a high sex drive and feels blessed for that. I wanted to know if their relationship is just sexual. Do they ask about each other’s day? To provide that non judgemental sounding board we all need… and I miss terribly. His surprising reply is that yes, we do and “I probably need it more than they do”. Ahhh, so touching and sweet. 

I feel like I’ve made a friend and admire his work. There should be millions of Seani’s out there. Maybe he should franchise? I’ve been looking for a year for this type interview, but with Seani, I found the Chupracabra. Oh, us ladies need lots of help, all right. In my second sexual revolution…there will be lots of Seani’s and places for women to go and find their Seani. Of note, sex work is legal in the UK…it should be everywhere. It seems absurd to punish people for an important and healthy biological need…and criminalize it…if we are truly a free society?  Those “guns and god” people preach… “We’re Americans, people hate us because we are free”. Are we? The Italians I met in Dublin, sum it all up best… “Love is Love”, the world needs more.

After our interview, we went for coffee and a snack. He told me some wild stories of his “primary partner’s” birthday party last night that involved interesting implements. I told him of my background….about Randy, after all I was married to him longer that anything else I did. So I asked Seani, if I were a Shadow tantra client…what did he think I needed to work on? He thought and said issues with the loss of your husband. As we said our goodbyes, and walked away.. I thought about what he said. I’ve a handled my loss really well. Started a whole new life…of course, there are those that think I’ve gone off the deep end by talking about sex on the radio. But I feel that I’ve found my real calling and everything I’ve done in my life has brought me to this moment. I feel so much compassion for people that have emptiness from sexual uptightness and repression….not to mention those sex starved widows, who shall remain nameless. Most of all, the joy they are missing without intimacy.

I have to admit there are times that even now I get angry with Randy, lamenting “why did you have to leave me?”. Its not logical because he did not want to die on that roadside, as he bled out from an aneurysm related to his cancer, July 16, 2011, on the way home from his mother’s birthday. I am still haunted by the fact that at the moment he was dying, I was so busy being nurse tying to save his life that I didn’t say… the things I wanted to say. When I retired in 2010, we went on an 8 month trip to the Pacific NW. When we left…my ambition was to retire, write, and plant flowers. On that trip, I had an epiphany..it was that I still had some big project to do in this life.

As I set here in my room contemplating it all…it makes me feel..alone in London. Am putting on some music and finding a way to shake these blues. I am intolerant of feeling sorry for oneself when there are so many people in the world that have it really bad. I’m very lucky to be able to work in London and meet such a kind, new friend.